·|RUTH|BRAIN TUMOR|HER GOD|·

Keeping dates isn’t just something fanciful or time wasting. It shows, reminds me, and proves a consistent track record of the mercies of God I’ve received; that I may come to know Him all the more, that I might embrace the Grace of God freely given to me, engage the Spirit of God within me, and continue establishing the will of God here on earth.

Keeping dates isn't just something fanciful or time wasting. It shows, reminds me, and proves a consistent track record of the mercies of God I've received Click To Tweet

15 years ago today, I was wheeled in for an urgent surgery because I was pretty much a ticking tomb. I was this little girl who had been hit with a series of ailments, had numerous theatre visits & surgical procedures, slipped into a coma, had episodes of rigors due to repeated wrong medications, dosed with medications till I was numb to the feeling of a needle, and so much more than I would let these pages contain.

I was this little girl who had been hit with a series of ailments, had numerous theatre visits & surgical procedures, slipped into a coma, had episodes of rigors due to repeated wrong medications, dosed with medications till I was… Click To Tweet

It was all in the bid to understand what really was wrong, why I pus was consistently filling my eyelids, then my forehead, despite several incisions and drainages, why I would be hit by typhoid, malaria, meningitis,within the same period.

Days turned into weeks, then to months, & the lingering thoughts of whether I’ll survive or be truly free, heightened.

I can’t forget November 12th 2002. I thought I was going to finally taste death that day. I saw myself rise up to the rooftop. Since this ordeal which began in October of the same year, it was the first time there was a battle of fear and Faith. I wouldn’t really say fear. It was when I understood that in that moment, I could just be gone forever and that was going to be THE END!

I was a 10 year old (4 days after my 10th birthday which I spent a part of in the theatre but with family constantly surrounding me). I recalled a memory verse from Sunday School… Hebrews 13:5b- “I will never leave nor forsake you”I needed God to show up and prove His word. So I challenged Him. (I was screaming and people had gathered around my hospital ward just so you get a clearer picture). I was scheduled for another surgical procedure that day.

I needed God to show up and prove His word. So I challenged Him Click To Tweet

I told God I still loved my parents, I still loved my sisters and I wasn’t ready to go. There was so much I had yearned to do and witness and I knew at 10 that I hadn’t known or witnessed that fullness. I didn’t know it then in this exact same way but I knew I had to “fight” for purpose and I knew it was in God’s power to give me this victory that was already there.

There was in fact, a tumor in my head that was already having a part of my skull & until this was found 4months after, it was from one relapse to the other, one moment of confusion in the thoughts & actions of my health care providers, to the other. There was me, grasping what Faith in God meant, and a family, a family, who was tried in every way but never gave up on me or God.

There was in fact, a tumor in my head that was already having a part of my skull & until this was found 4months after, it was from one relapse to the other Click To Tweet

My parents and sisters,  went through so much more than I can detail in this post but what I know is that I was never alone. I didn’t know I had slipped into a coma but I slipped out at midnight and I remember seeing them, praying for me. I remember my mum, leaving her job and sleeping on a wooden chair day in day out, my dad running all around and still encouraging me, my extended family being there, my sisters, taking my pain as theirs, the church and our friends, covering us in love, prayers, presence, and resources.

I laughed a lot; I think. I thought of going back to school occasionally. I just wanted to see the end of this thing I couldn’t understand.

 

This wasn’t the 1st fight for my life. My mum told me I was one case of an ectopic pregnancy. In simpler terms, as a fetus, I was developing somewhere else, outside the uterus/womb. I battled a whole lot afterwards and this time in 2003, surviving what was  diagnosed as frontal osteomyelitis, surely wasn’t my last fight.

This wasn't the 1st fight for my life. My mum told me I was one case of an ectopic pregnancy. In simpler terms, as a fetus, I was developing somewhere else, outside the uterus/womb. Click To Tweet

If you asked me today, this wasn’t my worst battle but I’m learning that through it all, there’s a relevance to my existence.

If you asked me today, this wasn't my worst battle but I'm learning that through it all, there's a relevance to my existence. Click To Tweet

I was given and preserved by God to restore the order and beauty of the world as it were in the beginning, doing so by the influence of righteousness.

I was given and preserved by God to restore the order and beauty of the world as it were in the beginning, doing so by the influence of righteousness. Click To Tweet

My life is to remain a posture, a position, that God can ALWAYS use.

KNOW that YOU are made in the image of God, made for His splendor alone & to reveal His greatness. I pray we seek & find the wisdom of God and obey His voice because truly, this is where LIFE is. There’s no boycotting it.

KNOW that YOU are made in the image of God, made for His splendor alone & to reveal His greatness. I pray we seek & find the wisdom of God and obey His voice because truly, this is where LIFE is. There's no boycotting it. Click To Tweet

 

I am proof that Jesus is Lord. Even where medicine was insufficient, I was on a lifeline called Grace.

I am proof that Jesus is Lord. Even where medicine was insufficient, I was on a lifeline called Grace. Click To Tweet

 

Thank you for now bearing this story. By God’s Grace, I hope to keep working on a book that tells of my life but even most importantly, of a God who keeps fighting for me. The same God who though has won for us all, still fights for you too.

Grace & Peace! ❤

 

P.S. Did I say? The cause of all of these still remains a mystery. A bone was taken from my skull to run tests/experiments but it didn’t yield anything tangible. That bone never grew back fully so till this day, there’s a depression somewhere at the left side of my hairline.

 

There are almost invisible scars around my eyelid and forehead thanks to all the procedures and a long, visible scar across my head as a mark of where I had been.

If you look closely, you’ll find the scar that runs through to the opposite side.

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  • Owa’zi Ebe

    Indeed God is faithful and can be trusted. I just had a good read. I experienced the bulk of the story from the ectopic pregnancy and the many hospital medications. I watched you go numb n prayed like I have never. I had to return to school (the coma part) had to be home with Gracie at the point of surgery….. Now all that came out of my mind was sweet memories? Yes, sweet because we are victorious. I am happy I can see this scar and relate.
    You are my slice of heaven and would remain that and more. You are a reflection of God’s love, His Mercy, His abilities, His wonders, …….. And what Faith in God does.
    I may not have all the dates together, but every day I think of you, I thank God twice that He still allowed us have you. You are a faith turner. Beautiful in and out.
    The Lord use you to show forth His glory and make you a praise on the earth.
    I love you deeply. Now I can’t stop the tears. Mwwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaah!

    • Amen!!! God has blessed us with each other. I mean, if you all weren’t amazing, I don’t know if I would have fought any harder. We’re more blessed than we have been able to real. I love you so much and I pray we keep growing in love, in Grace, in wisdom. Thank you, for ALWAYS standing with me.

  • Osarenoma

    There’s so much relevance in your existence. You’ve been a blessing to everyone around you. God will keep you for many many many many years to come. Hold on to your dreams and trust God through the process 😊.

    • Amen! Thank you so much Osa-(I really feel like adding “my runaway friend” 🙄) Thank you for consistently challenging me to be a better human.

  • Pius

    Wooooo… God is indeed faithful. Thank God for you. I celebrate the life you live Ruth. You’re indeed lienced to live. Cheers to many more anniversaries!

  • Gingerlie Lifestyle

    Ooh my! This God is too good! This is an awesome testimony. It shows you were truly made for signs and wonders! Keep shinning girl!